I'm handing over everything that I've got cuz I wanna have a really true love, don't ever want to have to give you up...

I am so sick and it sucks. I remember bugging one of my friends who vowed he would be single for his entire life. I remember telling him, 'one day you'll find some lovely little lady who will bring you chicken soup when you're sick and you'll fall madly in love.' He used to laugh at me, and he's now with a very lovely lady who I'm sure does in fact bring him chicken soup when he's sick.

I'm sick now and there's nobody bringing me chicken soup. I've been laying in my own pool of sweat for days now.... attractive I know....

Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling, tell me baby, where did I go wrong?

Isn't wisdom supposed to come with age?
Then how do I manage to fuck this shit up each and every single time? I've unintentionally developed a skill in order to fuck myself over on a regular basis. And I wonder why I feel this heavy heart.

I would hold you up again if you asked me....

I should stop fighting the things that I crave deep down inside. My independent side has blocked the dependent side. Good thing? Bad thing? Who knows?

Love is a beautiful thing....

Somebody tell me why I'm so tired I could cry....

I hit up a Starbucks today for a tea and I noticed the side of the cup had a thing called "The Way I See It" and it went something like this.....

"The irony of commitment is that it’s deeply liberating – in work, in play, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life."
- Anne Morriss

I hate this. I hate this a lot actually. It's fuckin bullshit. So to commit and fall into a simplistic routine of life is bliss? This is what life should be? To remove thought, doubt, hesitation and fear of the unknown is good? Hey Anne Morriss, why don't you just get your ass thrown in jail? Would that be liberating? You would never have to make another decision or have another thought for the rest of your life. And I'm not saying committment is necessarily bad, but it sounds as though she feels committment is great for all the wrong reasons. Ugh, this is enough to make me never want to go to Starbucks ever again. I don't even want to come across such a retarded thought first thing in the morning when I have my tea.....

Some girl tried to justify to me that it is ok to spend $14,000 on a diamond encrusted Gucci watch as long as you really like it. ARE YOU SERIOUS? That is pure greed at it's worst. What is the purpose of such an extravagant item? Oh yeah.... to impress other pretentious jerks that only care about how they look to the outside world. Do the diamonds help you tell time a little better? Does 3pm look better coming off a Gucci face? I want to vomit. This is what our world has become. What a fantastic era to be living in. And we wonder why there are so many people starving and dying in this world..... because we're too fucking selfish to give up our diamond encrusted Gucci watches. What a depressing thought. Sorry if I'm bringing you down, but these are the things that make me sad....

M83 is beautiful.

We kill what we build because we own the sky....

Why is this world so heartbreaking in every way possible?
Where do we draw the line?
When is it ever enough?
Still waiting for all the answers.....