All Youve Got To Do Is Fall In Love - Benji Hughes
Monday, February 9, 2009
All you gotta do it fall in love.... all you gotta do is fall in love with me.....
My heart aches. I'm not really sure how to fix this. I miss the days we used to spend together. I miss you so much. It's been months but here I am still wondering what the hell happened? Trying to understand but I can't, you've given me no clarity. Everything was perfect.
All Youve Got To Do Is Fall In Love - Benji Hughes
All Youve Got To Do Is Fall In Love - Benji Hughes
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Why am I so blind with my eyes wide open?
It's funny how dependent I've become on the shred. I didn't ride all weekend and I pretty much sat around all bummed out wishing I was on a snowy mountain somewhere. It's like a drug.
I think I've realized why I'm so perfectly ok with being single. Being single is easy. Being in a relationship is hard and either I'm not ready to deal with it or I'm just plain lazy, I'm not sure. I always say I'm single because nobody is interested, and perhaps I'm being a cocky pile of crap but that's not true either. I sat alone in my room today not shradding and I could just hear my phone beeping, texts from dudes that actually want to spend time with me...... weird, I know. But I find myself most attracted to men I can't have, and I don't mean married dudes or anything like that. I mean men that are emotionally and mentally unstable to some degree. So in short, crazy dudes. But why is this? Well if I can't have them then I never have to deal with the stresses that come with being with someone and the potential heartbreak. I've had my heart broken before and I can't say I'm a fan. I think I've just become concious of this. It's actually pretty fucked up. There are some very very sweet dudes that are fairly interested in me I suppose, good looking wonderful dudes. But I'm far from interested. Or maybe I'm crazy and I'm trying to find some excuse as to why I wouldn't want to be with such wonderful people. Or maybe my tired brain is finally starting to lose it.
I love the song Revival by Soulsavers. I first heard it in "That's It That's All" and everytime I hear it I think of Travis Rice and shredtastic shreddies. But it's a beautiful song, check it out.
I think I've realized why I'm so perfectly ok with being single. Being single is easy. Being in a relationship is hard and either I'm not ready to deal with it or I'm just plain lazy, I'm not sure. I always say I'm single because nobody is interested, and perhaps I'm being a cocky pile of crap but that's not true either. I sat alone in my room today not shradding and I could just hear my phone beeping, texts from dudes that actually want to spend time with me...... weird, I know. But I find myself most attracted to men I can't have, and I don't mean married dudes or anything like that. I mean men that are emotionally and mentally unstable to some degree. So in short, crazy dudes. But why is this? Well if I can't have them then I never have to deal with the stresses that come with being with someone and the potential heartbreak. I've had my heart broken before and I can't say I'm a fan. I think I've just become concious of this. It's actually pretty fucked up. There are some very very sweet dudes that are fairly interested in me I suppose, good looking wonderful dudes. But I'm far from interested. Or maybe I'm crazy and I'm trying to find some excuse as to why I wouldn't want to be with such wonderful people. Or maybe my tired brain is finally starting to lose it.
I love the song Revival by Soulsavers. I first heard it in "That's It That's All" and everytime I hear it I think of Travis Rice and shredtastic shreddies. But it's a beautiful song, check it out.
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