So my best friend in the entire world, M, is super pissed off at me right now. The reason? My friend R and I are getting married on Tuesday..... it's a sham wedding so he can get my spouse pass at work. Because I used to work with him and everyone knows us, they know that we're not really a couple, however, if we have a wedding certificate then he can get this stupid pass and we can have our sham wedding annulled. My bestest thinks that I'm making a very very stupid mistake and that I'm going to regret it. Why would I regret it though? Who gives a shit? M told me I clearly did not value marriage and that I shouldn't fuck around with things like that, as if it's the occult. This isn't a real wedding and it's not a real marriage, R and I are going to city hall, we're going to sign some papers, then we'll go to work and he'll get his spouse pass, then we'll sign some more papers to state that this marriage never happened. It's all just paperwork and the only person getting hurt at the end of the day is work. PAPERWORK.
What is a marriage anyways? Does it mean you love the person more just because you signed some papers and had a big party? None of this shit matters. The only thing that matters at the end of the day is how you feel about the other person, how much you love them and the love you share. I'm not sure who ever invented marriage but it isn't and never has really been about love as it's believed to be. It's about legalities. If one day you are lucky enough to meet someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with why is it so important to get married? Marriage can also end in divorce. Marriage is a way to screw your partner in case you ever decide to get divorced.
I may be taking this whole marriage thing lightly, but I don't take love lightly. I will not give my heart away to someone undeserving. I've said it time and time again, I rather be single forever then be with the wrong person for the rest of my life.
Anyways, so that is why M is so pissed at me right now. This whole thing was supposed to be a joke but I've already been reamed out by two of my friends. WHO CARES??? Right now, I'm bummed about a lot of other things going on. My sunny disposition isn't so sunny right now. All I need are my friends by my side, I need someone to help remind me of the wonderful things in life that I love so much. Right now, I feel as though I'm constantly surrounded by assholes and bullshit and the last thing I need is get bitched out by one my favourite people in the world over some ridiculous sham wedding.
I'm also starting to think the boy I have a crush on may not have a crush on me.....
I am desperately seeking peace, not necessarily within myself but with the universe. Please stop fucking with me and show me the beautiful things. I think I need to find a tent and go spend a few nights alone in the woods....
Listen to: Ready for the Floor by Hot Chip
I've Got So Much Love by Bastian Bates (or there is also an alternate version done
by DJ Falcon)
I've Been Thinking by Handsome Boy Modeling School feat. Cat Power
Watch: http://www.vimeo.com/1745897
It's not as amazing as the skate video I posted before, but it's a beautiful video none the less.
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